i like to edit with the text editor 'gedit' for some reason rather than the text editor that is built into linux mint. I think I have managed to organize the website in a coherent way. I shall BE HERE NOW to quote RAM DAS.
It is a sunny evening at wash park. The cool breeze feels nice. There are children over there that seem to be carrying some kind of crab. A man whose legs have been amputated wheels by, using his arms to pedal. It is difficult to know what to write about. It was difficult so speak today with ben. I talked with him about trump. I kept repeating to him "all this trump stuf." All this stuff I don't want to talk about, this "Trump stuff." That is quite the name for it! I suppose it is the one that I coined. How are we going to act?
I said that it is a paranoid world. I think there is some truth to that. What would it mean for the world to be paranoid? Paranoia is a problem that occurs when there is too much meaningful discourse Out There. When everything is meaningful is when there is paranoia. Paranoia is a sort of extreme of meaning. It is what occurs when there is too much meaning. I do not believe that we are in a 'crisis of meaing.' I resonate more with Duane Rousselle's claim that the problem today is that there is too much meaning; hand in hand with certainty. Not only is there a hidden meaning out there, but I am certain about it. That is not a good disposition. Donald Trump speaks the truth of this orientation. It is a lonely one. So in some sense we are in a crisis of meaning. It is 'Everything Everywhere all at Once.'
This retuns me to a lacan quote from seminar 11, the four fundamental concepts of psychoanalysis. There he invokes "the traumatic non-meaning to which the subject, as subject, is subjected." This is why I insist that it is a mistake to confuse a cell with a datagram. A datagram is a gadget of discourse. There is no meaning - that is, no discourse - at the level of the intercellular. The real cell is not a gadget of discourse. This isn't to say that gadgets of discourse are not capable of intervening at the cellular level. I would obviously be reminded of this by the fact that an insulin pump sustains me. What exactly is the mistake? In some sense it is a constituitive mistake, concerning there being meaning "out-there." However meaning is an effect (bonus consequence) of discourse . I have had to wrestle with this question on a personal level, in everyday experience. Is there a meaning to my sickness? It is the mistake of believing one's self to be cursed.
There is the paranoia of our times.
The question I asked was, 'how will we act?' It was a personal question as much as it was a political one. Maybe a better question wld be, will those of us who are alone in our bedrooms be capable of acting? Will the datagram information foreclose any encounter with the trauma that might open up the space of action? Or, as trumps discourse testifies to, will the traumatic wound continue to be projected out in an otherward direction?
I would like to try to articulate further. anyways there is the notion of an internal conflict. this has been common. Today the internal conflict is increasingly projected outward. Then I realize I am essentially just mumbing just to me. I don't mean to generalize. In any case that is something I have found to be important lateley. That is, just the idea o
Ok so I am currently balancing my mouse on my knee. This is because the linux setup is not well configured with the touch pad. I bet there's some sort of driver I can download that would help with that. Note to self -get touchpad driver.
It is a fact that I spend a lot of time upon computer machines. So what ever I have been saying, it is because of experience, namely due to the fact that I am implicated in the moment. Perhaps there ought to be an exit from computer machines. That was the unibomber's thesis, famously. This pov is a bit too nostalgic for me since it presupposes there was harmony way back when.
this is just a junkyard. i don't consider that to be a bad thing. There is the general problem of waste, and it is good to learn how to manage with it. Perhaps me, I can manage with it via writing. I don't know. It is one way. The laptop is not such a bad receptacle for it.
i hope that in writing this blog someone will find an idea or two of mine worth commenting upon. It would be interesting to talk about; that way I'm not just blabbering in isolation. I suppose this is the only way I've been able to find of reaching out. Or at least it is the latest iteration of reaching out. It woud be nice to know what someone thinks of all this.
This is what what I have figured out how to do, for now. I am learning.